this is real important for me right now

this is real important for me right now

I have been beating myself up for as long as I can remember is one way or another.  And today I got a fucking degree.  2:1.  And then I started beating myself up again and convincing myself that I am still worthless.  But I am going to try to take this time to congratulate myself on achieving the biggest thing I ever have, and doing well.  Because I am not my brother, or my boyfriend, or my best friend or anyone but me and I have done the best me.  So I should be happy

adidasstellasport: “ You’d be forgiven for assuming that the woman who’s single-handedly spearheading a female cycling revolution in London must have grown up living and breathing bikes. But for 25-year-old Jess Hayes, the brains and energy behind...

adidasstellasport:

You’d be forgiven for assuming that the woman who’s single-handedly spearheading a female cycling revolution in London must have grown up living and breathing bikes. But for 25-year-old Jess Hayes, the brains and energy behind east London’s cycling girl gang, Velociposse, that’s certainly not the case. Her gang—born from an online shout out to other women who wanted to race—has become somewhat notorious in the cycling community. They provide a click-and-you’re-in support network that gets female riders of any age or level in gear.

Something you definitely shouldn’t expect from Velociposse is bunch of earnest athletes leaping about in dodgy lycra and preaching about electrolytes. The majority of members hold down full-time jobs and jump on their bikes for fun whenever they get the chance. The vibe is more party than protein shake – and there’s not an off-track ego in sight.

I’m afraid I’m a total failure and I’ll achieve nothing and I will die of debt and poverty and depression in a very small damp London flat surrounded by no art because I lost motivation around the same time I lost all the people I love :) :) :) #endinguniisSCARY

  • 7 years ago

My greatest achievement has always been learning to love myself and be happy so now I am in a place where I am really happy.  But I’m putting on weight and I’m feeling myself hating on myself for it but equally not really doing anything about it.  I guess it’s ok though.  I am not becoming a worse person or less attractive really.  This is another thing I am going to have to learn to accept and love in order to stay a happy person.  So yeah, I guess I’m ok I just hope… that I am still considered as equal and important when I am no longer as thin.  ugh